Tuesday kinda sucked. Well...actually, the majority of the day went really well. The one thing that really threw off my entire day was the big embarrassing mistake I made! I left a child out on the playground!!! You see, when it's time to go in from the playground, all the teachers clap their hands and the kids line up according to class. Each class has a teacher in front of the line, and one in the back of the line...except for my class of course. I get to round up all my rowdy kids all by myself!
Anyway, we clapped, and the kids lined up. The trouble was, one of the classes came out late to the playground (due to picture day) and so they got to stay later. So it confused a lot of our kids who were lining up. ("Why do we have to go inside while they get to stay and play?") I counted the number of my kids....nine...yup, we're all here! So I lead them inside. It was tricky since I had no teacher at the end of the line, so I continually had to try and manage it all from the front (trust me! It's easier said than done!).
At long last we made it into the shoe room where the kids could hang up their coats. When one of the playground teachers came walking in with one of our kids. "This one got left behind." She said. I couldn't believe it! I left a kid behind on the playground?!? I felt so embarrassed and worried. Looking up at my lead, I could see her staring at me like I had committed a crime. My stomach sank.....damn!
Later, one of the big bosses came to hear what had happened. "I heard a kid from your class got left behind." I could feel my cheeks flush. Great! It had gotten back to the office! Are they going to keep me under a magnifying glass now? Am I going to be in trouble? A thousand thoughts and worries ran through my mind. I tried to explain myself, but it hardly seemed like I was being heard. So as soon as I got home, I cried my eyes out. I was so worried about how it was all perceived by my bosses, and I was horribly upset that they seemed to show me little respect when they haphazardly listened to my explanation.
I couldn't help but also think to myself, "God help me when I'm a mom! Am I going to leave my child somewhere and forget them?!?!" I felt like an epic failure. But luckily my husband brought me back to reality from swimming amongst all my 'what-ifs' and was able to counteract my irrational thoughts.
Be still, sad heart! and cease repining;
Behind worries of Pickle is the sun still shining;
Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.
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