Today was the ultimate birth control!!! It was, by far, the WORST day I have had yet at work! The morning went fine, but come the afternoon, it was utter chaos! You see, we have one particular student (an older student that is often looked to as an example for the younger ones) who is going to be transferring to a different school. Because of this, he is suddenly choosing to burn major bridges to ease his transition. (This isn't too uncommon for younger kids. It's easier to deal with lots of emotions and uncontrollable change by making situations uncomfortable and therefore easier to leave.) Well, as a result, he decided to break all rules and drive me and the lead teacher up a wall!!! And, of course, since all the other kids look up to him as the big kindergartner of the class, they decided to all follow in his steps. Before we could even deal with the one boy, we had at least 5 more students also breaking all the rules and causing utter chaos in the classroom. Works were being thrown across the room, children where yelling and fighting, kids were running around laughing....I wanted to pull my hair out!!! This one boy, knowing that he will be leaving, suddenly robbed us of any authority with his short-timer's attitude! I wanted to do many painful things to him that I'm sure would have me fired in a heart beat, but I tried to remain calm. But oh....the ideas....the dreams....the fist clenching, rage-ahol glory!
But honestly, it really shook me. Today was so maddening, it caused me to second-guess my teaching abilities while so many kids ran amok. It also made me desperately try to remind myself why I got this job in the first place! But the hardest part was that it started to seriously scare me out of the idea of having a baby. I mean, of course I want to have Pickle and we still will. It's just...how am I going to handle that kind of behavior if it ever comes from my own child? What do I do if I have to deal with that ALL the time? I guess I just have to remind myself that, as a parent, I will have more grounds to discipline and teach than even a teacher can. Let's just hope I can manage it without having a stress induced heart attach!
Anyway...that's basically it. I hated today thoroughly. Caring for 17 rowdy, uncontrollable kids is the best kind of birth control out there. And as for kindergartners....our little devils from hellementary school....they bother me the most right now! Well....at least little boys who cause chaos and are rude to me by laughing in my face and ignoring my words. Gerr! HEAR ME VENT!!!
/sigh....How will I ever survive this? T_T
As much as I love dill pickles....I hope our Pickle is a sweet pickle.
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